A DAY OF SHARING GRATITUDE – September 15, 2019

On Sunday, September 15, 2019, please join us for a day of gratitude.  We will honour our great Dhamma grandmother, Arahant Mahāpajāpatī Gotamī, the Buddha’s aunt and surrogate mother, on the anniversary of her ordination as the first bhikkhunī.
We will also be celebrating the 70th birthday of our Sati Sārāṇīya Dhamma mother, Ayyā Medhānandī, as well as our 11th anniversary, including 10 years here, in the forests and fields of Tay Valley Township, Ontario.
Along with members of the Tisarana community, we will be hosting Luang Por Viradhammo to bless us with a Dhamma talk as we share gratitude for the devotion and generosity that has created this sanctuary for the Buddha’s Teachings.

  • 11:00 am      Rice pindapat, offering food & blessing chant
  • 11:30              Potluck meal
  • 1:303 pm    Meditation, Dhamma talk, and chanting

** Instead of a gift, please carpool if possible and kindly bring your own plate and fork/spoon to eat out of – this will lessen disposable waste.

A Week of Silent Meditation in August

MINOLTA DIGITAL CAMERAJoin us for a week of silent vipassana meditation lead by Ayya Medhanandi and sponsored by Satipanna Insight Meditation Toronto (SIMT) from August 9-16, 2019.

The venue for the retreat is Chapin Mill, a beautiful 135 acre purpose-built Buddhist meditation center run by the Rochester Zen community. It was founded by Philip Kapleau and is located in rural Batavia, near Rochester, upper New York state – 2.5 hours by car from Toronto, 6 hours from Ottawa.

Registration is now open.  Contact SIMT for registration details.

Ayyā Medhānandī’s 70th – A Day of Sharing Gratitude

Please join us for Ayyā Medhānandī’s 70th birthday on Sunday, Sept. 15, 2019.  It is also our 10th anniversary in the forests of Sati Sārāņīya Hermitage and our 11th year in Canada.
Luang Por Viradhammo will join us for this special day along with members of the Tisarana community. It will be a joy to have you with us to hear his Dhamma talk and celebrate the devotion and generosity that has created this sanctuary for the Budhha’s Teachings.
  • 11:00 am      Rice pindapat, offering food & blessing chant
  • 11:30              Potluck meal
  • 1:303 pm    Meditation and Dhamma talk

Ajahn Candasiri’s Visit

For the past week, we have been blessed to host a beloved spiritual elder and mentor, Ajahn Candasiri, founder of Milntuim Hermitage in Scotland and one of the first four women to begin training as a Buddhist nun with Ajahn Sumedho in 1979.
During our time together, she reflected on the challenges of pioneering monastic life in this day and age, and, with her seasoned wisdom, contagious joy and compassion, she engaged us in lively heartfelt dialogues about the intricate, often complex facets of that process.  We are delighted to share two of her uplifting Dhamma talks:
  • Finding Joy – May 12, 2019, at the ordination ceremony of Anagārikā Jayasārā
  • The Way of Kindness – May 14, 2019, at our community morning breakfast

Dutiyampi – A New Anagārikā

On Mother’s Day, May 12, 2019, near the time of Vesakh, the community at Sati Sāraniya Hermitage conducted an ordination ceremony for Anagārikā Jayasārā, Eleonora Monti from Italy.

We were deeply honoured to have Ajahn Candasiri with us for the occasion and to share this joyous time with many of our supporters. We were also fortunate to hear Ajahn Candasiri, who has 40 years of monastic experience, offer a most uplifting and inspiring Dhamma talk to us all in honour of this day which would have been her own mother’s 100th birthday.

Anagārikā Jayasārā

Anagārikā Jayasārā of Milano, Italy, first came to support our Winter retreat after serving at Amaravati and Chithurst Buddhist monasteries in the UK during 2016-2019.

She took the anagārikā precepts in May 2019 when, serendipitously, Ajahn Candasiri, a pioneer of the Amaravati sīladhara community and one of her mentors, was present to offer encouragement and blessings.


As vast as the seas and the skies –
our minds reach out beyond this
web of life,
wandering far
in search of a beauty that will last.

This too we must forego
for all we find
are fragments
caught in the net of our longing.

And yet, and yet,
we stay the course,
we endure –
and soon
what seemed like trials and losses
become treasure.

What once were shells
tossed joylessly away
turn into temples,
and through all danger or decay
we stay pure, steadfast.

These miracles we witness ask
only to be remembered,
and seen
for what they are –
as if to mark the threshold
we enter
out of our innermost darkness,
out of the chains of fear.

Ayyā Medhānandī
© 2019

White Robes & Shaved Head

On an unusually warm winter afternoon, the last Sunday of November, many of us gathered together in the Temple to witness Anagārikā Kusalā (Lori Elling) enter the holy life as a postulant at Sati Sārāņīya Hermitage. Reflecting on the auspiciousness of this occasion, we recall the Buddha’s teaching:

“…A person of good family who has gone forth from the lay life to homelessness… Being diligent, they become accomplished in virtue. But they’re not happy with that, and haven’t got all they wished for. They don’t glorify themselves and put others down on account of that. Nor do they become indulgent and fall into negligence regarding their accomplishment in virtue.

Being diligent, they become accomplished in training the mind. They’re not happy with that, and haven’t got all they wished for. They don’t glorify themselves and put others down on account of that. Nor do they become indulgent and fall into negligence regarding their accomplishment in training the mind.

Being diligent, they become accomplished in deep wisdom and insight. They’re not happy with that, and haven’t got all they wished for. They don’t glorify themselves and put others down on account of that. Nor do they become indulgent and fall into negligence regarding that deep knowledge and vision.

Being diligent, they attain unshakeable liberation.

Suppose there was a person in need of heartwood. And while wandering in search of heartwood they’d come across a large tree standing with heartwood. They’d cut out just the heartwood and depart knowing it was heartwood.

If someone with good eyesight saw that person, they’d say: ‘This mendicant knows what heartwood, softwood, bark, shoots, and branches and leaves are. That’s why they cut out just the heartwood and departed knowing it was heartwood. Whatever they need to make from heartwood, they will succeed.’ 

It’s impossible for that mendicant to fall away from the final end of the spiritual life, that unshakeable freedom of heart. . .”

from the Mahāsāropama Sutta, No. 29, Majjhima Nikāya

At the Core of the Coreless

albatross and baby chick

Audio Version – Ayyā Medhānandī Breakfast Reflections

I’ve talked quite a bit about the tornado and the eye of the tornado. And I spoke more about the winds circling around the eye than the eye itself.  We tend to measure the speed and direction of such an intense wind storm but we don’t usually say much about the eye at its centre.

The interesting thing about the eye itself is that there is much to explore within that eye.  That eye is actually eye-ness.  It’s not an ‘I’, not a person. It’s not a personality.  And it’s not ‘an eyeness’ either, because that could quickly be thought of as an ‘i’ with a ‘dot-ness’.

The most valuable and unique aspect of the Buddha’s teaching is that this I-ness is empty.  It’s actually empty.  But we mistakenly perceive it to be full – until we learn how to see.

And learning how to see is not something we can do conceptually.  Our conceptual instrumentation is flawed. Not from birth, but from lack of training.

This particular path of practice and opening to this core which is coreless – that’s another thing. Language doesn’t capture it.  It’s a core but it’s coreless. Like a banana tree. It’s a tree that has no core.  Most trees if you cut them and look in, you find a core.  But the banana tree has none.  It’s coreless.  And if you take it apart, there’s nothing inside it – nothing at all. Absolutely nothing.

So if you take this mind and study it deeply and look within it – look truly deeply within it! Look deeply within it and see through. You find nothing.

The finding of nothing is a very important discovery.  We can’t discover it conceptually. It can only be discovered intuitively.  During the process of discovering, necessarily we have to go through steps.

And those steps can be very painful.

There’s a beautiful analogy in the scriptures of a meditator being like a chicken in the egg and the meditation process is like the mother hen sitting on the egg – sitting on the egg and heating it up. And when the conditions are right, then there’s enough heat but not too much.

When the shell is mature and the little foetus inside is ripe to come out, then the thickness of the shell becomes something that the little chick can penetrate with its beak.  And it starts pecking away until it makes a hole big enough for it to emerge.

But if the mother keeps getting up and leaving the egg, then these processes of the shell warming and the chick inside developing and the conditions for its breaking through never ripen.

So that can be used to describe a meditation practice which is sporadic. It does not have within it the right factors to develop the conditions for the mind’s ripening: the right warmth, the right attention, the right intention, the right clarity, the right consistency, the right commitment, the right effort, the right way of paying attention that warrants diligence, ardency, remembering to be present, to be studying, peering into the core so one-pointedly, so undistractedly that the whole process can mature and the chick can poke through the shell and see.

In this process, some of the necessary steps before the little chick can come out are its having to experience terrible pains, excruciating pains, unearthly pains – and at times very earthly pains. We feel all manner of pains: internal pains, external pains; what we think are pains, what we don’t think are pains; what we perceive to be mental pains, what we perceive to be physical pains; what we perceive to be internal pains, what we perceive to be external pains; what we perceive to be social pains, what we perceive to be psychological pains, what we perceive to be our pains, what we perceive to be other people’s minds pains.

We engage in receiving those pains in ways that are unbearable, and we blame others or we blame ourselves; or we don’t blame anyone. We just feel hopeless, helpless, lost, unequal to the task, incapacitated, inadequate, oppressed, pressured – wanting to get out, wanting to run away. Wanting, Craving. We fall back into deeper and deeper states of exaggerated craving.  And this, of course, does not make the process of opening ripen.

It doesn’t lead to the celebration of that opening – that ability to see through. Instead, it misdirects us. We flap around a lot, and in our flapping we can create quite a mess.  And we feel even worse for all our effort. Then we make up our minds – this is a waste of time, this is harming, this needs to stop. That’s very common. It’s classical. We feel sure,“This is harming.”  So we have to stop!

That’s to our detriment because all of us are capable of opening. I know many women have described the pain of labour.  Perhaps it’s one of the most intense pains that a person intentionally experiences – because she knows it’s result is that the little chick is allowed to come out.

In this process we don’t realize that we are in labour. But we have other pains that simulate that – like a mental pain. It’s a heart pain, not a physical pain. By mental we don’t mean brain. It’s really important to distinguish that. It’s not cerebral pain but it’s a pain of the heart.

So the pain of the heart is a cracking open. It’s a complete cracking open. It’s a seeing, it’s a bearing with.  And it may be excruciating, but we bear with it. We bear with it, we take care.  We take care of the body the best way we can. And we take care of the mind the best way we can.

We don’t accelerate. We don’t try to manipulate the process or speed it up. We are just patient with it, realizing that this is an important and difficult ascent.  It’s an ascent of the highest mountain; or it’s a descent into the deepest possible space that exists in this world.

That’s how vast the journey is. How magnificent and immeasurable the whole process is. And it has to unfold karmically. We can’t intentionally speed it up because of craving, because of wanting a result, or expecting it to be a certain way and have it the way we like. This is all delusion – because the opening is a very major letting go. And that’s why it’s so excruciating – because we’ve been taught not to let go!

Yes, because we’ve been taught to cling, to own, to have, to possess, to increase, to inflate, to expand, to broadcast and receive results; to be gratified and have it pleasurable, have it satisfying, have it protecting us, keeping us well – so to speak – according to our socialized, acculturated definitions of getting well, and all of that.

But in this letting go, it’s like the letting go that those little boys in the cave in Thailand experienced. They were in the dark, they had no food, they could barely drink water – just a little drip-drop from the walls of the cave. And they were terrified. Because they were alone, abandoned, lost, down in the bowels of the earth.

So what a magnificent thing they were able to do because their teacher helped sustain them and guide them to be like little chicks in the dark within a shell, breaking through and able to see within their own body-mind process the corelessness, fearlessness, true deathlessness, the dying to the craving to get out, to be rescued, to be found.

He was able to help them – and they were captive.  There was nowhere to go, nowhere to run, nothing to run to. No succor of any kind. No comfort. No tangible oxygen tank or hero to carry them away in his or her arms. There was just facing death, disappearance, destruction.

But within the corelessness of their own little body-mind processes, they could find some space, some place, some way of being that went beyond all the panic, anxiety, fear and helplessness. They were able to go beyond that and touch it.

It’s very much what we’re doing here. And it feels artificial – because it is.  How many people would choose to climb into an oven and bake?  Do that, even heat the place up, or overheat the body – and look at your mind.

So by our choice of staying within these cloisters, we’re like chicks in a little dark space, little Thai boys in a cave and we feel like we’re trapped. This is because the mind is too frightened, too immature, too unripe to go into that corelessness and let go of the world enough to be able to see through. Not just to see.

Seeing isn’t enough. We have to see through our conditioning. We have to see through our blockages. We have to see through our clinging.  We have to see beyond our craving.

We have to see through our enslavement to having all the things that we can experience through the sense doors – and we have to only use the mind door, the heart door.

Sit in front of it. Sit in front of it and be with it, examine it, know it, taste it, touch it, until we see that it doesn’t exist. There is no door. It’s just an empty space.  We are already in that.  We are that.  We’re nothing less than that – and yet – we are nothing.

In the emptiness of all impurity in the mind, we begin to see through. We see not just the arising of phenomena in consciousness due to our attachment, and our wanting things to arise in consciousness so that we can feel alive, but we begin to see through to the ending of phenomena in the mind. We begin to see through to the ending of phenomena in the heart – taking up one by one the detrimental observations of phenomena, and what is detrimental to their emptying.

We see what is detrimental, we see what diminishes us – and what takes us back to clinging. We see that.  We see how it begins and how it ends.  We see the ending of it.

At first it’s very frightening to see the ending of things. But in seeing the endings, craving is also ended – the ending of craving and the ending of attachments. We see the ending of hanging on to things that we trust and that we don’t even know we’re hanging onto because we haven’t stopped long enough, perseveringly enough, committed enough to see through.

In observing the endings and not being terrified by that, we start to taste the interior. Tasting the ending, tasting the emptying out is a wonderful moment. And it gives us a sense of trust, an “O, what is that?” moment. Something to experience, to know, to feel, to be with – without being. To burn everything for that.

In the burning up of all that is familiar and safe that we think we know, we discover that which cannot be burned. We discover that which is unburnable.  In that corelessness there is the unburnable, the pure, tasteless, nothing to cling to, nothing at all – that is a total freedom.

It’s difficult to trust that there is something we have without experiencing it.  Faith is a difficult quality to develop.  But without it we are lost – lost in our doubt, lost in our ideas, and our self-view – which is the biggest prison of all.  In the meditation practice we have the opportunity to develop that trust through our own insight.  No one else can give that to us.

Once we develop even a little bit of trust, and we spend even one moment in that place that is so pure, we want to give more and more to it.  We are willing to stay in the cave to do that.  It’s very rare that beings can stay in the cave. Most people want to run out into the sunshine.

But the imperceptible light within us is even greater.  It can light up the whole world.  In the dark of night, it can light up our hearts – even in the middle of the greatest storm.

© Ayyā Medhānandī 2018

Blessed by Ajahn Sucitto

Ajahn Sucitto - a bright light

In mid-September, we were blessed to welcome Ajahn Sucitto to Sati Saraniya Hermitage for a joyful sharing of the Dhamma. We marvelled at the benevolent impact of his wise, gracious presence on our inner well-being, and how – both during and long after his visit – we experienced the profound virtues of kalyanamitta so frequently extolled by the Buddha.

In the spontaneity and fullness of this occasion, no recordings were made. Fortunately, Ajahn Sucitto’s talks are freely and widely available.

In one of his recent reflections, The Practice of Inclusivity, Ajahn Sucitto describes how our external and internal worlds come to be built upon exclusion. And he encourages us to give up the exhausting endeavor of excluding the uncomfortable in favour of meeting the suffering of the 1st Noble Truth.  In this way, we can release suffering through embodied presence with all that arises.